until july: 143lb
I’ve been a fat girl since childhood. When I was a baby, I was extremely thin but healthy kid. My family thought that a healthy baby was supposed to be a fat one. So, they started giving me a lot of food. I mean, a looot. I continued eating a lot for 17 years.
I tried many times to get healthy, but I wasn’t brave enough. I used to give up easily. And in 2012 I got extremely unhealthy. I had high blood-pressure. My Dad was extremely worried about me, my sister is a doctor, and said that I wouldn’t live for much time if I didn’t do something to change my life.
My family tried so many ways to make me have surgery. But no. I was too afraid of it. It was dangerous because of my heart. I had to do something for me, or I would die anyway.
On 2012 Christmas’ day, I went to a bookstore and bought “Think like a thin person” that helped me a lot. During my reading I realised that I am my own owner. I had power enough to decide what I am going to eat. I had power enough to say: No, I won’t eat that. It isn’t good for me. I felt so worthy of a better life. A free life.
My problem wasn’t hamburgers, and snacks. It was food. Food. I loved to eat. To sit and eat A LOT. A lot of rice and beans, a lot of bread. A lot of FOOD. It was an addiction. In fact, It still is, but now, controlled.
I took some months to start rightly. In may (2013) I started going to the gym. From there I got so much motivation and help. I started and didn’t stop anymore. I HAD TO LEARN HOW TO EAT AGAIN.
The beginning was extremely difficult. I failed so many times, but I didn’t want to die. I wanted to keep fighting. I wanted to keep trying. I wanted. I just wanted that tooooo much. I didn’t stop. I don’t stop. If I fail, I try again. Again. Again. I love to eat healthy food. I love to give myself more time to live, more pleasure.
It was difficult, and still is. I am used to eating right nowadays, but I can’t forget who I was. I am blessed for being through this battle, I have many people who help me A LOT. I am really grateful for my family and friend’s help. I wouldn’t do anything without them.
I appreciate the opportunity to share my battle.
"You will be able to say: I DID IT. Please, KEEP FIGHTING."